Send me to jail, living like this has to be public endangerment.

It's been a month or so since I last blogged, and let me tell you, what a month.

I've experienced more conviction, more stress, more assurance, more growing, more challenges, more testing than in a long time. I've come to realizations, and epiphanies. I've experienced an unrelenting sense of peace, hit the new depths of anger, been more honest, more vulnerable, more out of my comfort zone than ever before, and I'm completely and one hundred percent okay with it.

I am annihilating my school work. I'm getting B's or better in all my classes, and I'm meeting my extra curricular requirements for getting off academic probation as well. I'm so totally ready for the next semester when I actually get to take classes.

(I stopped writing this back in November, and picked it up again in January.)

I ended the semester with a 2.7 GPA(2 B's, 1 C), and about sixty hours of SLT. I don't know if it was enough, and that freaks me out. I am, mentally, dreading not being allowed back into Grace. I know I need to finish my psychology degree. It's kind of critical to starting my life's work out right. Oh yeah, I figured out my life's work.

Mind = Blown

I feel like I am on the edge of being able to outline the core of what I'm going to be doing over the next few years.

I'm starting with the premise that men do not know how to be men, and that we need to relearn what it is to be a man. This is reinforced every time I go out in public, talk to anyone, talk to a woman with a crappy boyfriend, or ex-boyfriend, and I'm constantly seeing that men forgot how to take action, how to respect women, how to handle themselves, and how to be men. This is a critical part of our civilization and over the last fifty years it's been slowly diminished and you can see the effect in the news. You've got young men shooting up malls, grown men shooting up offices, men cheating in business, men mistreating women either passively or actively, and the general entropy that is currently shaking the hell out of our society.

I'm not a visionary, this has been a problem that there are multiple books, and men's groups about. The website, artofmanliness.com, the works of John Eldredge, and the ministry of Mark Driscoll are some of the more visible elements of this "menaissance", but except for AoM, the message is pretty limited to the Christian world. And with knuckleheads like Chris Brown, Tom Cruise, Joe Jonas, and the bronzed up meatheads from Jersey Shore setting the standards for men in society at large, we are in desperate times. This is why there's a desperate need for manliness to have a spokesperson, someone who's tried out what the books and groups have talked about, and is vocal about it.

Enter the Dangerparty.

My New Years Resolution is to live fearlessly, boldly, and balanced. As a man. And to change the world. One day at a time.